saturated is the word. that is exactly how im feeling now. next word on the list, bonkers. not gonna be an early night i think..
considering that i attended only 3 lectures for the entire "sicence of music" module, i managed to clear both CAs. double yay. let's hope the final grade for this will be equally good...
16th apr
watched swing girls yest on tv. it was good! kinda like.. makings of a jazz band! think the actors n actresses in the show really know how to play their instrumentals.. tat is "wah". they played glenn miller's "in the mood", among other jazz pieces. i wanna watch their re-run again! =p
my first paper is next fri. im still pretty slack LA. my 4 papers are pretty spread out. with about 3 days in between each paper.. think its my best exam timings ever. my worst one was having 3 consecutive papers in a row. really almost died attempting it. but ironically, i got my best cap score during that sem. weird yah. maybe its the "work best during stress" thing..
its pouring outside.. its a bloody nice sat morning to sleep in. =p trying to psycho dad to get himself the nokia 6280.. so i can try it out before i decide to get tat for myself also. listenin' to slow jazz now.. rain & jazz = great combination.
15th apr
im proud to say, all work load was done and cleared. although i did sacrifice 1 whole night of zzz to piah for 2 CAs and 1 eco report due on the same day. the results shouldnt be that bad, i think. still thinking, is it gonna be my last sem here? or wad? its already mid april.. *sigh* time passes by so fast..
no photos these days, cuz studying wad.. bro bugged me to "put 2 photos together".. he and his new beloved.. *gag*
10th apr
as wad yan says, it was a bad murphy day.
here's the list.
1. swollen thumb joint (yan)
2. caught off guard, no pad (me)
3. $1230 hair cut (yan)
4. car summon (yan)
5. kanna charged wrong payment to debit card (me)
6. LS (yan, me)
suay anot. hur!! but other than that, trip down to do hair with yan today went well. the lady thinned down my hair, maintaining the length and the rebond. cuz i was worried, trimming har = wavy hair. dyed hair again. not bright la, else kanna labelled "ah lian" again. n never would i cut short hair again (jc times), if i wanna risk my brother calling me, "kor kor". he is such an ass.
and with him, verbal abuse is fun. =) cuz we would end up laughing.
//
afternote. due to "unfortunate events", i cancelled on fri's and sat's organ classes. oh dammit. i dread going for organ. n since when do teachers dread teaching?! hurhurhur. i cant explain it myself, other than, i dont really enjoy it anymore? BAH.. rephrase. i still love music, but i dont really like teaching. its hard when they dont practise, and their parents wanna see results. 2 words - my ass. but of cuz, i cant say -my ass- to them. i feel like im wasting my time, im wasting their time and she's wasting my time.
6th apr
unexpectedly, i got the car today. HAHA.
so happie that she trust me with it.. but i dont trust myself, so i got boo to sit in too. not as stressed when parents are around la. they tend to overeact. i went at a speed i was more comfortable in, which was way faster than i normally go. whee. reached sch from wdls in only 30mins.
went down to holland v for katong laksa. enjoyin the convenience of a car. cuz i dont think i would drive that often, once dad returns from guang zhou and when the new car arrives at the end of the month.
stopping by boo's house later to pick up some stuff, then gonna go fetch mom back from work, go dinner together, then go back home. this is one long driving day. but im glad!
p.s. i can park now. not head in. but, backside in. finally!
dinner was yummilicious. had pasta today, and the seafood marinara i had tasted great. it was a set dinner, which includes soup, drinks, pasta and dessert (brownie ice cream). the 3 of us left there feeling happy (except yan who didnt really like pasta.. haha) finally 1 good recommendation from CH! movie "failure to launch" was pretty farnie. laughed at the dumbest things, and CH laughed the loudest anw.
great outing i feel. crapping the whole of today, and talking to yan after she sent me home. nice to have them really. n to sidetrack, some people from sch and elsewhere (normally GUYS la) ask why am i so close to a guy, when i have a bf.
wait a MIN.
1) who are you in the first place to ask
2) why must i tell you anyway
3) does having a bf mean i cannot maintain close friendships with guys i know long long ago
4) fuck yourself for asking
ANYWAY this is happy post, and i shall end it writing happy stuff.
dad going to guang zhou tmr, so mom hav car = may get ride to sch = great for me, esp if im driving. even better, i drive mom to work, then drive go to sch. haha. dream away man. but i shall try to persuade anyway.
and, a picture of the 3 of us. cheers to happy time! my first time playing ard with these, n i know, the effects kinda suck. SO, i shall try to improve. less clutter next time i know. eager to test out the little stamps wad. so everything try abit. muahah. tats why so messy.
why is 13th n 14th apr so popular? i think its a conspiracy to drown us all, at the same time. damn u damn u damn u. on a lighter note.. i've finished the midi composition already, and gonna cont to conquer the next assignment. oh damn. 2 more CAs. at least, out of my 5 mods, 1 is non-examinable. out of the 4 left, 1 is s/u-ed. so, i have to (only?) focus on my 3 lifesci mods. one sob for each mod. sobsobsob.
meeting yan n ch later for a good dinner of pasta! my all-time fav..
29th mar
jus kill me. i hate writing arty farty essays.
so glad i S/U-ed it. BUT, it doesnt mean i have the option not to write it.
exasperated cry
fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
25th mar
on mornings which i DO wake up for lessons, i would prob reach the aye busstop by 9am. then i would call/drag/coax/pull boo up to go for breakfast (kopi + toast) with me. haha. i admit. i do terrorize him alittle. but he's nice enough to follow me too, though he often sleep only at 4am? and to take a step further, i make himhe offered to he walks me to class, in his un-gelled hair and sleepy eyes.
"im gonna lose my way and miss my lecture if you're not sending me there"
works everytime. (rem to blink eye as you say)
muahahha.
thanks boo, for waking up early, and for everything else other than this.
20th mar
came across some interesting linux commands.. muaha.
the new photoshop cs2 is pretty fun to use. dont lag as much as ver7.0. and the interface is cleaner. hee. im having fun. will try to explore more of its functions. cant wait! gosh, really sounding like a geek now. =p
19th mar
one night while in sch studying with boo, jasper and junhao....
me: tmr's gonnna be a real long day.... (gotta piah for test la, so i was feeling quite miserable)
boo paused for a moment.
and said: well.. it really depends what time YOU wake up.
*mumble mumble*
my boo knows im a zhu.
//
i like taking pictures of people.
candid shots especially
cuz they hav a very natural feel to it.
isnt that what a camera is supposed to do?
not jus a 1-2-3- cheeeese moment.
it should also preserve how a person feel at that moment.
without posing, without feeling self conscious.
i've always wondered how i look like to others
when im sleeping, talking, smiling, dreaming,
but especially when im jus observing my surroundings, not doing anything.
// in a really pensive mood today...
18th mar
//
it was really a long day! received a morning call at 6am by long ge. haha seems he went round calling people to get up, and in the end, at gather time (7am), he was still nowhere to be seen. muahah. luckily he manged to catch up with us at the Tuas custom. the journey was realllly long. our group got the back seats, and sherileen literally lied down and had all 5 back seats to herself. shiokness. reached the 1st stream around 11am.
#stream 1#
all 8 of us in the group went down into the streamwater. lucky not murky. heh split up into 2 subgroups and off we go, collecting samples and measuring the area. cuz there's some trees on one side of the bank, and the branches kinda overhang the stream. so we gotta bend over and move to the other end..
LUCKILY we bend over.
cuz awhile later, our TA suddenly exclaimed, "should hav brought camera ah!" thought wad. some interesting bird or something. then he said, got SNAKE here! fwah! apparantly it was some mangrove cat snake. haha TA was more concerned of his sleeping snake than us lo. kept telling us not to disturb it sleeping.
this is how our snake look like. except that the one we saw was sleeping. (this pic was taken off the net.) didnt use my cam cuz i was too lazy to get out of the water to get it, and also, i have to be rather near the snake to snap a pic. hehehe. no thanks. =p our lecturers came by too, to examine it. n said that it had probably jus had a full meal ( a bat in fact ) and is now happily sleeping. *bleah* they took lots of pics lo. haha and around that time, sherileen screamed and said, "got leech, got leech" damn scary in the sense, both legs submerged in the water, and leeches lurking unseen to the eye. (though i managed to see this big fat leech. about 10cm in length.) so both of us frantically got out of the water. hee. girls. i know. this marks the end of stream 1.
and we thought it was lunch. damnit. asked the TA is it lunch now? he scratched his chin and said, "what lunch?" hehe. damn damn damn. =p
#stream 2#
this place was WAY nicer than stream 1. got big boulders and bedrock and others. and got pple slip and fall off into the water -> me and bala. mine was a minor slip, while bala's one got a full frontal wet area.. muahah.
as what sherileen said, "cannot laugh. got karma one.." hahah
no one was spared. especially when we had to measure the water depth. which was easily around my thighs, where i was standing. poor mian ou went nearer the middle area, and immediately regreted. his white shorts and white undies were fully visible. hahah. and sherileen's shorts were wet also. u see, the only one who escaped was tong. look at the picture again. he is taller than us can. of cuz wont kanna water la. unlike us short folks. haha the water there looks clean and clear. n very very cooling. damn nice to soak legs and thighs there especially in this weather.
had enjoyed the trip, though there was lots of climbing and walking. been awhile since my last "school excursion". so kiddish right! my subgroup mates (mian ou, tong and sherileen) were really nice pple la. haha super slackers. we "estimate" alot of the readings. while the other subgroup was more precise in their measurements.
and the journey back home was very fast. i slept even before the bus left stream 2 area.
//
going to Gunung Belumut (JB) tmr for our last ecology fieldtrip.. was jus packing the stuff to bring into boo's deuter bag. n now, it looks kinda "pong". we're supposed to bring our own lunch. & im bringing chips =) haha sharing food tmr with lucy and long, so hope we hav a variety of stuff to munch on. koped my bro's nano to last me thru the 7 hours of bus journey back & forth. hope the battery lasts man! n since the bus gonna leave nus at 7-freaking-am, there is no way for me to reach by then if i stayed home. SO, here i am, blogging in boo's room. =p
at last, can slack. the past few days were... crap. mug. mug. mug.
it was a damn hot day. somemore on a fieldtrip day to bt timah nature reserve. hot. hot. very hot. mosquitos. itchy. sweat. counting how many stalks of Clidemia hirta plants there are on a 20m by 4m plot of land. alright la. it wasnt all tat bad. jus the weather n the mossies making me cranky. i think i thrive only in aircon env. oh, add in a comforter. n im set to sleep. the career fair over the past 2 days were... boring? not too many companies tats catered to the lifesc industry. not to mention a certain big-ass-elitist booth which has very stuck-up representatives. blah blah blah. if all you have to say is "refer to the bulletin" then why would u still need people stationed in the booth? might as well just place the blardy bulletin there, n please remember, make it big for goodness sake.
1st mar
my room's in a big mess right now, as always. thank god my mom doesnt meddle with stuff in my territory. cos if she does, i wont know where to find my belongings. and that goes to say, there's order in a chaotic environment too okay. =p
had a SS project meeting yest. haha interesting cos boo is my project mate too. its a first time for us.. found it easy to get along with the other 3 guys cos 1 of them is my sec sch classmate, and the other 2, are both crappy and nice pple. not so much of putting 5 strangers in a group lo. cos. i know rw and james. moses is rw's fren, and khai ching is james' fren. heh see? makes it easier to work together.
27th feb
alot to "look forward" to, in a really negative sense that is. 3CAs on top of 4 Assignments / Essays from different modules in the month of March. u guys think im damn "eng" is it? *grumble grumble*
lately, i've been thinking if i shd continue to do honours. been talking to cousins, parents and boo about this ever since last sem.. BUT.. haven really decided eh, cuz i've been getting mixed response from the people i consulted. and yes i know. apart from getting suggestions, only i myself know what is really best for me. and nobody should change that.
seems like a really mindless post. nah. just procrastinating so i wont need to get back to doing my work.
21st feb
went makan with yan & ch on sun. was sleeping all the way to city hall after taking my flu med. n not to mention, the Ah Chooos! and sniffs sniffs, thru out the entire ride. wahaha. the sight of food did made me feel alittle better. kuishinbo here we come! think we were too lazy to go for multiple rounds, so we jus took whatever we wanted and felt really full after jus 1 round. haha our table was full to the max. more chit-chatting than anything lo. followed by the movie "pink panther", then yan fetched us home with her new car. she named it, peanut butter. haha. so cute can..
too many un-glam pics taken that night. we were making farnie faces thru out. so.. turns out, only CH's photos came out "nice". didnt dare post the other pics up! too... terrible. muahaha.
i had lots of fun today! wheeee. our 4e1 class arranged a boat trip. all of us got a turn in driving it. haha tat was so fun! its both a meet-up and a farewell for christina who's leaving for aust tmr morn. gotten sunburnt in the process, and ended up with a red warm face. ahhhh!!! anw, we did some fishing today, n yay i learnt -
1) how to cast a fishing line,
2) that "ikan bilis" are easier to catch,
3) you need "tua peh kong" 's legs in order to catch ANY fish and lastly
4) shit will discolour after floating too long in the sea. yukes!
n now, pictures of all who came.
the handsome guys
& the pretty girls
14th feb - vday II
memories are best kept where they should be....
- in your heart.
happy valentine's boo!
for vday this year, boo came over to my house to cook. he's the master chef (in name only la). muahaha -kidding- his responsibilities include marinating and grilling e steaks, making sure the soup turn out well and slicing the chicken (tough job im telling u!) while i prepared the potato salad only. muahah. =p thank you boo, for everything.
11th feb - vday I
we wanted to avoid celebrating vday on tues, cuz basically its a wkday la, no fun! and the next obvious reason is, the whole world is celebrating with you. and hence everywhere is gonna be jam packed. the restaurants, the cafes, the places to slack, ie, esplanade. bumbum. n not to mention, dinner will be pretty standardized across the board with some "vday dinner specials". n yeah, if BF forgets to make reservations at your dinner-place-to-be, you can kiss it byebye. the crowds are scary. even swensen's has a queue line!
so we decided to celebrate earlier (on sat), at the Fullerton chocolate buffet. muahaha. the food was great, service good too. it wasnt too crowded, or noisy. the setting was jus right. there were live musicians (2 violinists and 1 pianist at the top balcony) serenading us thru'out our entire time there. would have taken more pictures, but our butts were relunctant to leave the comfy armchairs.
the chocolate fountain was 4 tier-ed. seeing that amount of chocolate made into a huge fountain is, amazing. i had fun eating the mushmellow, strawberries, breadsticks coated with chocolate. the chocolate milk was good too. yum.
chocolate!! boo was wondering about girls' craze over chocolate. what is it that make us so happy eating it? imagine what an entire buffet of chocolate would do to our hormones??? massive release of endorphines! muaha. that aside, i really enjoyed the company that night. the food, the company, the feelings. i left feeling satisfied. haha. boo left, promising to stay off chocolate buffets for at least a few years. haha, and i think, girls in general have a higher level of tolerance for chocolate. give a girl choco anytime man!
had my first pharmaco prac on thurs. we had to deal with live mice. not dead ones. we had 12 white baby mice on our bench. all so small, cute and actively moving around in their own cubicle. for this prac, we had to insert drug into their body either orally, into their thigh muscle, or into the tail's vein (iv). we had to learn to handle the mice ie, hold them in the right way so they cant turn round and bite us. the oral route was the least invasive, cuz there's no injections required. but we must force the syringe to the back of the mouth to make them drink the drug. sheryl n i did the i.v route. we gotta search for the vein (purple/blue). rather easy to find. then, inject the needle into it and release the drug. this is the tough part. it is hard, because the mice is resisting. it is moving away from us, me, the needle. being first timer at it doesnt help. i want to get it over n done with fast, and hopefully also painless for the poor thing. but i suck at doing the injection. i feel so bad causing it so much pain, and causing it to bled from the wound. i feel horrible not able to inject it once n once only. n in the end, i had to pierce thru its skin 3 times. there were 12 mice in total, but only 9 were used. we asked the TA, what would happen to all the mice after the practical (all used n unused). she said, "we will gas them. it will be a fast death." appears that those mice had only 1 purpose. after fulfilling their roles, they are redundant and hence, put to sleep. she also said, we were get used to it after awhile. the question is, do i want to "get used to it" at all?
1st feb
chinese new year is a blur of relatives, kids!!, bak kwa, mahjong, cards, orange juice, pineapple tarts, ang baos!, late nights, new clothes, bai nian, oranges, egg rolls, taking pics, early morns, havin' fun. i had a great time this year!
i suddenly remembered i had a mission to accomplish (a follow-up from yesterday's conversation) i was to post an entry which will give guys a specfic example on "how to surprise your girlfriend" or "how to make them happy" that kinda things. then wei ms tay will hint her bf to read my blog n hopefully he gets the hint to do something along that line. =)
....
....
(half way into this para.. i deleted wadever i just wrote)
nah. if YOU are interested in making your girlfriend happy, just ask yourself, "what will make her smile?"
is she worth making any effort for? or to you, is it a "so long already, no need la" case?
yes guys, ask yourselves now.
20th jan
(click to enlarge)
muahaha. we made this collage and printed it in A3 size, with a nice board at e back too, n presented it to our birthday boy! the size of the jpg file sent for printing was close to 5MB. my poor laptop almost died doing the whole thing. haha. CH!! see!! we're so nice right!! the best part was, he didnt even know how all these photos came about even cuz those were mostly candid shots taken by yours truly.. =) can really see the changes (him, des, yan n i) n also, cheers! to 6 years of friendship.. yan say we must celebrate our 10 years of knowing each other, in year 2010.
p.s. yan n i were complaining how round our faces were back in jc. and we were so proud of it somemore back then. cannot imagine. =p haha it was great time spent last night, as des was here as well. the 4 of us in full strength finally.. we went for steamboat dinner (for CH's bday as well as a small CNY reunion for ourselves). became damn full, hence we walked from suntec to somerset, to attempt digesting whatever we ate earlier. met up with des at TCC, where we chilled from 10+ to 2+.. it was fun.
18th jan
jus finished posting some collages. really time consuming. not as fanciful as the past few ones. jus something to remember the outings. =) eeeewww. yan n i wanna plan a surprise for someone.. gonna need a few hours tonight to do it man! yikes! running late meeting up with hy they all. be back tonight with more pics!
the past week
had another ktv session again last sat. im officially stoned. it was for zengdi's 21st bday. marks e end of organ there officially! it was nice meeting up with zd, ch, jj n zk. that grp of corksters. muahah. n ch (not CH) can really sing. i was wowed away by him!
boo n i had our 1st lecture together (finally!!!) managed to find time this sem, yay! best part, there is webcast, n now i feel like skipping it altogether! L.A.M.E. muahah.
we jus got back from jap makan with hy,xy n chai. the sashimi's pretty nice. the potato salad taste good too, n tempura prawn, good! no pics today, all of us too busy makaning.
my laptop never fail to crash, every half year or so. now i've gotta quite used to it already. and thankfully! i did all my backup. so i still hav all my music and pics files. laptop was acting weird that day. i could feel it. hence, the massive last min rush to backup my stuff. wheee. cant believe im still so happie even after my hard drive crashed. if its gonna do that jus 1 more time, the laptop screen can very well serve as my next photo frame. =p (scream with me.. new laptop!!!) so, no uploading of photos, til they send it back to me on fri. yan>> be patient. i'll send u the pics soon. heh gonna be seeing you for the next 2 sats anyway lo!
met up with the 4e1 grp and also christina, who was back from aust. to have indian food at little india. it was good. arjun's recommendations were definitely worth going down again another day for round 2. heehee. we ordererd 3 different types of curry - 2 non spicy and 1 slight spicy only. im drooling just thinking about it. those interested in tasting those delicious authentic north indian food, find ARJUN!!! and the guys are talking about a boating trip in feb, jus before chris returns to aust. cant wait for that!
backtrack to sat.. had my 2nd last organ lesson at music school. can't describe how happy i was!!!! wahah. as it was a really rainy day, yan came to fetch me to town. so touched. muacks! had some light snacks at maestro bistro while waiting for ah hsien to arrive. went ramen ten for dinner. hsien himself ate 1 upsized ramen bowl, while yan & i shared 1. king kong have a big appetite eh!! after dinner, we walked all way back to cine kbox.
and there! we sang from 10pm all e way to 3am. after reading yan's blog, i agree very much with what she wrote. only with real friends, would we dare to sing with all our might, and attempt those super-high key songs. not paiseh around each other anymore. welcome to being our jie-mei mr ah hsien! it was really a great night spent with them. enuff said. =)
had a real bad case of stomach flu (determined by ms tay yan yan) i puked 3 times that night, and i felt terrible that boo had to witness that. yikes! whole night of tossing n turning. couldnt drink, much less eat anything, as that would trigger another puke session. luckily my weds are free days, hence i hav both tues & wed to recover. watching "my date with the vampire I" now. n hopefully i can finish all of it before the workload starts to pile up.
glad im taking my bio module (eco) right now in sem 2. cuz i found friends to take that with me! esp princess ling whom i've gotten to know during microb lab. hm.. im feeling heeheehaahaa nowadays. i wonder why. maybe its cuz there's quite ALOT of public hols in jan alone. yay.
im bursting with thoughts.. i used to type alot, ie. write more than wad im doing now anyway. jus feeling increasingly uncomfortable writing about wads bothering me, wad issues im dealing with now, wad decisions im making.
that probably account for all the picture collages i made this month. other than the fact that its hols and i hav time to go out (& hence more pics), its also because i hav nothing else to say or type in here. and since, its always, "a picture is worth a thousand words", so there you go. i hav at least 9 sub-photos in 1 collage each entry.
whats posted in each entry, shows jus the superficial bits. wad i did, where i went, who i met yada yada yada. sure, it keeps track of my days. but the unspoken feelings got lost somewhere.
except for some rare occasions, i don't think i've ever really wrote what i think and felt.
for starters, i wont be staying in hostel next sem. i miss home too much, but i'll also miss the convenience and having boo staying jus next block. guess we can work things out, either by crashing his room when i wanna stay over or whats not.
next up, i've notified them (sch admin) of my decision to terminate my teaching contract. after doing so, i started to regret.
there goes my "buying power" whenever i intend to purchase new techy items. and also, this means i gotta rely on parents to foot my holiday expenses. dont really like that feeling. i mean, i want to be able to pay for the stuff that i buy, and go for the trips that i want to go, without having to ask for permissions. in a way, stubborn. i know. but, its jus me.
but you know, saving your cash for something and finally buying IT, the feeling is priceless. i take pride in knowing that the digicam is mine. not those kind of "mine" that actually means my parents bought it for me, but "mine" that means, i've worked for it.
think im writing too much. its a senseless entry. its just random thoughts all over. n anyway, the sch asked if im interested in teaching at another branch that is nearer to my home instead. should i? yes no ??
BAH. i hate making decisions.
this may be my last sem in uni. lets jus see how it goes. im pretty much excited about working, and life after uni. finally. but it also means, byebye dec holidays. and that sucks.
wait. does this mean, the last dec holiday i'll ever have is already gone?
one last thing. the word "fuck".
to me, its just an expression, like "shit". used by me when something bad happened, when im irritated, when for no reason at all. first word that comes to mind is, "fuck".
its not swearing. its not "SCREW YOU! GO TO HELL" its just an exclaimation. that is all.
but somehow. when i blog, i feel obliged to keep the text "clean". BUT hey. fuck is just a word, like shit, like WHAT!!!! . closer friends laughed when they read my exam blog, in which i mentioned fuck in every sentence.
i make an effort to "de-fuck" my words, for the benefit of friends who are not so comfortable with girls exclaiming it all over. but when i do, please do not go wild-eyed about it and have that "you have just sweared" look on your face.
so we decided to celebrate earlier (on sat), at the Fullerton chocolate buffet. muahaha. the food was great, service good too. it wasnt too crowded, or noisy. the setting was jus right. there were live musicians (2 violinists and 1 pianist at the top balcony) serenading us thru'out our entire time there. would have taken more pictures, but our butts were relunctant to leave the comfy armchairs.
